Karma’s a *#^*@!

During the past two years, I have been getting my undergraduate degree in psychology.  I am fascinated by a disorder known as Narcissistic Personality Disorder.  Specifically in regards to the devastation that people with NPD have on their victims or “targets.”  It is for purely personal reasons. You see, I was a target. 

I read everything I could get my hands on.  Some of the information was helpful, some of it only further victimized me, by saying that “it was the victim’s fault.”  That’s when the author would lose me as a reader.  I would think to myself, ”Excuse me, but I didn’t sign up for this!”  

One fellow victim on the net, who spoke of his bout with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and subsequent recovery, talked about how helpful red wine had been for him during the process.  While my doctor had agreed I was suffering from PTSD, her advice was to “Get over it.”  I have never been much of a drinker, but I decided to give red wine a try.  Don’t they say it’s a good antioxidant?  All I can say is that it helped me and surprisingly not, it was a much needed self esteem boost to be carded for being under 21, each time I purchased my favorite blackberry Merlot.  I am fond of saying that I read everything I printed from the net, with a yellow highlighter in one hand and a glass of red wine in the other. 

During my research, a concept I found that was new to me, was “Karma.”  According to Webster’s, “Karma: n comes to us from Buddhism, Hinduism, and is the totality of one’s acts in each state of one’s existence.  Or, it is loosely considered, Fate.  Occasionally, (certainly not as often as we would like) the narcissist gets a big dose of Karma because of how they have treated, family “friends”, co-workers, basically everyone they come in contact with.  (I place “friends” in quotations, as the narcissist really doesn’t have ANY.)

I understand the concept of Karma, but I am more familiar with Galatians 6:7 “Be not deceived: God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.”  After many years of abusing people, the narcissist is finding that be it Karma or the biblical truth, the very thing I warned him about, is coming to pass in his life.

I have been educating a co-worker and friend in our rich and diversely influenced American language.  Apparently, when one becomes a citizen of the United States of America, “Colorful American Sayings 101″ is not offered either semester for a P/F grade. 

After hearing about the latest consequence leveled against the narcissist, I exclaimed, “Karma’s a *#^*@!”   My friend’s eyes grew wide.  “Who’s Karma?  Does she work in the office?”